Ooh my sweet honeyYY

Do you know what it is like to look up into the velvet nightsky, and yet not see the stars? Do you know what it is like to see the song birds sing their sweet music, and yet not hear their sound? Do you know what it is like to feel your heart inside you, and yet not feel it beat? Do you know what it is like to be in a crowd of people smiling, laughing, sharing their love together, and yet be all alone with no one around? Do you know what it is like when the light of your life has been extinguished, and you are left in absolute and complete darkness, frightened and alone? Do you know what it is like when the one you love so deeply and dearly is so far away?

My heart cries out your name and yet there is no reply...

All i want to do is hold you in my arms and i cannot. All I desire to do is to kiss your sweet lips, and i cannot.. I long to hear your soft sweet voice as you whisper words of love to me, and i cannot... I just want you near me.. and you are not..

Your absence brings with it frustration and sadness. I curse God that I cannot be with the one I love, and yet thank him completly for bringing you into my life, all the while knowing that no amount of dreams and hopes and prayers, can, at once, change the situation - the situation that is in the hands of the God that I curse..

So, what do I do in such times? How do I keep the wits about myself? How do I maintain some semblance of normal life, when all I can do is think about YOU, the one person that I am so much in love with and that I would do or give anything just to be with? I feel lost somwhere between the cruel reality of life, and the dream-like fairytale that I wish to live in, and the only salvation is to be found in your arms.. and that cannot happen..

Friends cannot comfort my soul. Thougts only make the pain in my heart worse. What do i do? I think about you.. oh my god, how I think about you endlessly.. I pray to god for the strength to see it through this situation, knowing that somday I will be with you forever.. But is that enough? NO. Not always. Until you are in my arms.. noting really helps..

The mind is a whirlwind as your thoughts are tossed around like matchsticks in the wind. But the one thought that is all constant and eats away at the core of my soul is a simple one: "When will I meet you again? Will I ever meet you again?" Such silly thoughts are these. But time can cause such thoughts to occur. It is only human. I am only human..

And so, I wait.. for how long? Only time and God can tell. And as I wait.. it seems as though the hands of the clock move in reverse instead of forward. Each second that passes seems as an eternity away from you. Time takes you further away from me instead of bringing you closer, and time is something that is beyond our control..

Oh.. I wish to be an angel, and have wings.. so that I may fly into your arms at this very second. To taste your sweet kiss and feel your warm embrace. To love you, to have the pain of needing you vanish in your arms, as would snowflakes on a summer day. And to know that we would at least be together for all our days..

Days sepent lost in sweet heavenly love, such as we have never known.

Ooh honey.. how is it that love can be so wonderful, and yet hurt so badly? Such pleasure in knowing and feeling your love for me, and such mortal pain in being apart from the one that I love so deeply, so derly, so passionately..

Honey.. there is an old saying that applies to being away from somting. It goes, "Out of sight.. Out of mind." But, my love, every "old saying" has an opposite meaning. In this old saying it is also said, "Absence makes the heart grow fonder", and just when I think it is not possible to be more in love with you, a second ticks off the clock, and I discover that I am more in love with you than ever before..